18. Color The Rainbow

I am thinking about going back to blonde in the next couple of months. I've been looking at older pictures of me and I miss it. What do you think?

I feel the need for change.

This week has been a very eventful week. Hell has been stalking my family and the drama continues hopefully not for very much longer.

On Wednesday, I received a phone call from my mother telling me that my closest cousin Jessie's boyfriend robbed a bank and then killed himself. Trust me, NO ONE even remotely, at all, expected this kind of behavior out of him. We are all shocked, and I can only think of Jessica who cannot help but wonder "what if?" and blame herself because they were fighting. I feel useless in helping her. I think everyone does.

And Friday, last night, was the one year anniversary of my dear Granny's death. We all miss her so much. Especially my own mom, who you can tell has so much to say outloud, yet can't get the words out. Sometimes, I wish I didn't read her so well. Maybe that's a little selfish of me.

But at least I admit it.

This week I'm even more grateful for friends and family.
I'm so lucky.