31. Whoa, Snake.

I have to be really, really, really honest.






FUCK.

30. So Much To Be Thankful For

Took a lot of pictures by Lemon Lake two weeks ago. Felt good to be in front of the camera again for once.








I woke up this morning with the warm light of day peeking through the rain clouds softly kissing my face.

I've lost a lot of people in the past month, a few that I thought would be around till I was 83, some I predicted and really only felt the few grams of weight they left on me carry through and out the door as I saw them for the last time, and some who still hurt to think about, to talk about, to anything.

But I'm moving on in my life. So much has changed in such little time, so many words have been left unspoken, so many dreams have been left untouched, but I can honestly say that I've never been happier in all of my life. I feel this sense of peace that keeps me going, that keeps me strong.

I won't write my goodbyes to those who never got it from me, I won't carry my words on here in a melancholy memory of what could have been, frankly, what should have been.

And I won't defend myself, though I hear about all the things you say, the things you talk to others about, it's time to put that all away.

I owe you all nothing.

I can only hope that your future is as bright as mine will be, and is. I can only hope for that.

I'll post something special within the next few days.

29. Careful, You'll Become Post-Natal

Life is so fantastic.

27. Just To Remember In Ten Years

"In the end I was the mean girl, or somebody's in-between girl."

26. We've Not A Lot Of Time, Bear.

Life's been crazy. So much has happened the past few weeks that I can't keep track of hardly anything. But that's alright, I like it this way.

I've taken too many photographs. And I'll post some here in the next few days, but there are so many that it's hard to decide which ones to flood these pages with.

I start school June 1st for all my general education classes so that next year I can enter the med program for Radiologic Technology.

I purchased my tickets for Bonnaroo (four day music festival in TN) for June 11th-15th and I'm looking forward to that so much I can hardly contain myself. So many bands, so many opportunities to fill myself with musical greatness that I don't know how I'll handle it. -smiles- EXCITED!

Ayden has been doing great, playing soccer three days a week, and playing outside whenever the weather is nice. Which is finally almost everyday now. It just needs to stick this way.

I haven't been writing again. Not for three weeks now, and I'm not sure what happened. But I've been doodling, sketching, and reading everything that is given to me as a present or anything I haven't read that sits on my book shelves.

So, this is how life goes now.

Busy, but I'm happy.