30. So Much To Be Thankful For

Took a lot of pictures by Lemon Lake two weeks ago. Felt good to be in front of the camera again for once.








I woke up this morning with the warm light of day peeking through the rain clouds softly kissing my face.

I've lost a lot of people in the past month, a few that I thought would be around till I was 83, some I predicted and really only felt the few grams of weight they left on me carry through and out the door as I saw them for the last time, and some who still hurt to think about, to talk about, to anything.

But I'm moving on in my life. So much has changed in such little time, so many words have been left unspoken, so many dreams have been left untouched, but I can honestly say that I've never been happier in all of my life. I feel this sense of peace that keeps me going, that keeps me strong.

I won't write my goodbyes to those who never got it from me, I won't carry my words on here in a melancholy memory of what could have been, frankly, what should have been.

And I won't defend myself, though I hear about all the things you say, the things you talk to others about, it's time to put that all away.

I owe you all nothing.

I can only hope that your future is as bright as mine will be, and is. I can only hope for that.

I'll post something special within the next few days.

14. Grieggggoooosssss

Meet Eric.

This is my babah's daddy. Hahaha.

My sister wanted me to have dinner with her family at Griego's last night and since Eric took Ayden to Cold Stone I figured it might be nice to invite him out to dinner since the poor thing rarely eats anymore. Money or manorexia, not sure, he is very sensitive about it when you ask though so I think it might be the latter.

-wink-

In all seriousness, I'm glad that after two and a half years of hardly speaking to one another we are getting along better to the point to where we can do some stuff with Ayden. Ayden seems to really enjoy it which is the most important, so if he's happy, so is mom!