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My name is Lynnsey. And I will haunt you like a ghost.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

30. So Much To Be Thankful For

Took a lot of pictures by Lemon Lake two weeks ago. Felt good to be in front of the camera again for once.

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I woke up this morning with the warm light of day peeking through the rain clouds softly kissing my face.

I've lost a lot of people in the past month, a few that I thought would be around till I was 83, some I predicted and really only felt the few grams of weight they left on me carry through and out the door as I saw them for the last time, and some who still hurt to think about, to talk about, to anything.

But I'm moving on in my life. So much has changed in such little time, so many words have been left unspoken, so many dreams have been left untouched, but I can honestly say that I've never been happier in all of my life. I feel this sense of peace that keeps me going, that keeps me strong.

I won't write my goodbyes to those who never got it from me, I won't carry my words on here in a melancholy memory of what could have been, frankly, what should have been.

And I won't defend myself, though I hear about all the things you say, the things you talk to others about, it's time to put that all away.

I owe you all nothing.

I can only hope that your future is as bright as mine will be, and is. I can only hope for that.

I'll post something special within the next few days.

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